Thanksgiving

First of all, the most beautiful Cinderella is living in my house. My daughter played Cinderella in the local high school production last week. She was brilliant, amazing, talented, georgeous! I couldn't be prouder of one of my kids. At church Sunday all the little girls were saying "there's Cinderella!" she is a local celebrity. Speaking of church, our awesome primary kids had their annual program and sang their little hearts out. I taught them all the songs for the year, and they did great. But sooooo glad that's over with! It's always alot of work, but they seem to always step up to the plate and do a great job.

Sigh, so many things to be thankful for this year and every year. It seems that I complain alot, but I'm trying to look at what I HAVE as opposed to what I don't HAVE. I'm grateful I have a warm home to come home to every night, grateful I always have food in my cupboards when so many people go hungry, grateful I have a job to go to every day and I can mostly pay my bills, grateful I have my health and my children have theirs, grateful for a good husband and good kids, grateful for the knowledge I have that I have a loving Heavenly Father who loves and forgives me despite the fact that I disappoint him every day, grateful I have clothes and shoes and a car to drive. Grateful for my Savior who died for me.

My life has changed tremendously this week. My husband is gone now 5 days a week, so I'm mostly by myself (except when Cami decides to come home). I haven't been by myself in 30 years, so it is a big adjustment. It's either going to kill me or make me stronger, and I am determined that it will make me stronger as a person and my relationship with him better and stronger.

Doc

I'm sitting here at the doctor's office with my hubby. He is having an MRI of his heart. He has had a few health issues this last year. I'm not sure if it's stress or just gettting old. I am always in denial about them. Whenever he says "what if," I always say, no, you're over reacting! You are FINE. I don't know if it's just that he is my rock and I cannot deal with him having a health problem or I'm just being impatient with it all and just want him to be OK. Life is difficult is many ways, but I'm trying to look at the blessings instead of the hard stuff. Today we might be trading in my beautiful red Chrysler 300 for a Jetta TDI. :((( I love my car... I call it my mid-life Chrysler. I got it last year for my birthday. It is really nice. But now we need to think about gas mileage because Andy will be driving 3 hours each way for work once a week for his new job. Life's about changing, nothing ever stays the same. We will survive! I am relying on my faith in a Father in Heaven. He knows our needs and wants, he knows what is best for us.

HMMMMM, what else. Thanksgiving is next week!!! OMG, what the HECK? Where did the year go? I guesss I'm cooking the dang turkey. I was going to have surgery, but decided against it. My female body parts can wait for now. They annoy me, but they don't need to go quite yet. My darling grandbaby, Drake, spent the night at our house last weekend. It was great. He is such a little angel. Slept through the night, always happy, ate really good. Well, after all I do have the most awesome grandkids in the world.

Veterans

It's Veteran's Day. A day to remember all the sacrifices made so that I can live free. My grandparents came to America wanting a better life in 19    They were very wealthy cattle ranchers until Castro came and took it all. They came over with nothing. My grandfather had survived his entire family drowning when he was 15 years old, then built up a successful business, only to have it taken by Fidel. He would survive again. He got his college degree and taught high school spanish for many years. I think I get my love of education from him. When I get down about life, I think of his strength and it makes me keep going. If he can survive, so can I. America is the greatest country in the world and I want to thank all the military people and their families that have sacrificed so we can all be here. We can express our opinions, we can march in the streets and carry signs, we can own property, we can work, and it's all because of the men and women who came before us to pave the way. I am feeling especially humble today because of the great blessings in my life. I get to watch my precious grandbaby over night tonight! It's the first time my daughter has ever left him overnight and she was freaking out a little before she left. OK, yes, I won't forget to buckle him in the carseat, ok, yes, I'll go slow in the car, yes, I'll change his diaper, yes, I'll put him down for his nap, yes, .........  HELLO, I've raised 4 kids, I'm pretty sure he will still be alive and healthy when you get back tomorrow.

Weekend

Had a great weekend! My kids all came home to visit. Love love me some grandkid loving! They are sooo freakin' CUTE! Kyle and his adorable girlfriend Becky came down also. So much fun to have all my awesome kids around me. I think we did an ok job of raising them. It's funny cause I think no one is really prepared to have children. We have them and somehow just muddle through. The last 30 years have all been a big blur of paying bills and raising kids. But now they are all grown up and life changes. I just can't believe how fast time goes by. And the older you get, the faster it goes! I have a busy time the next couple of months. Finishing up my class, having surgery (getting my female parts taken out), holidays, work, primary program, etc. Whew! Oh, and on top of it all, I think I need a root canal. My tooth is killing me. OUCH.

Scary

I love scary movies. I have been watching all week shows like "top 10 scariest movies," etc. I think it's because it's an escape from life. Like I can be scared and be safe in my house. The only thing that freaks me out are the devil possession ones. (think Exorcist). Cause the devil is REAL and that can happen! HOLY CRAP, I better be good or the evil one will get my soul. Other than that and the really gory ones (Hostel) I'm good with scary. There is a couple of creepy weekly ones that I watch. The Walking Dead and American Horror Story are both really good.

My hubby got a job that's 3 hours away. There are alot of things to think about. We have a house with a big mortgage, his parents live with us, I basically have 2 jobs down here. So we won't be moving anytime soon. It will be a new adventure for us! He will be gone basically M-F and home on the weekends. I'm having faith that this will all work out somehow. The Lord has a plan for us, I have to believe that. Andy has been very comfortable in his job for the last 18 years. Well, watch out when you get comfortable! Your cheese is bound to move eventually and you have to adapt. "Life's about changing, nothing ever stays the same." (credit to Patty Loveless song)